I’ve been feeling pretty uninspired, photography wise, for the last month or so. Maybe longer?
You know when you get really wrapped up in something and love it so much that you drop all the other stuff? I’ve been really wrapped up in learning Illustrator and designing stuff, creating Andrew’s birthday party, shopping for spring clothes, growing this little blog again, trying to survive Caroline’s toddlerhood, having friends over for dinner, working out more than normal, drinking lots of coffee, making more salads, going to bed early and reading real books.
These are all great things. Truly, things I want to make more time for in my life. But they’re not photography. They’re not capturing the joy on Andrew’s face on Christmas morning. They’re not looking for just the right light and doing a little happy dance when you see that glow in you kid’s eyes. They’re not pulling out your camera, looking at the scene and knowing what your settings need to be without a second thought.
And I think that’s okay as long as it’s a short season.
As (enthusiastic) hobbyist photographers we face the challenge of being our own motivators.
There are no clients who call when their baby is born. There are no clients who book us for their wedding six months down the road. There are no magazines hounding us for content for their summer editions. We set our own goals, our own timelines.
I’ve been teaching myself how to take pretty photos of my kids for over four years now. I seem to go through phases of high motivation and phases of real apathy. Right now? I’m just not really feeling it. I think summer will help. We’ll be outside at the pool, grilling out and playing in the sprinklers.
The days will be really long and full of hazy sunshine.
I’m also afraid my 365 Project has had the undesired effect of me snapping one quick photo and then thinking I don’t have to pick my camera back up. Well, I got one. I’m done for the day.
Starting today I’m going to change that thinking. I’m going to pick up my camera anytime I see something beautiful. If I have lots of pictures to choose from? Well, the more the merrier. And photos like these of Caroline from last week don’t hurt either. She’s so sneaky, hiding from my camera all the time, but this day she was playful and fun and let me capture her spark so perfectly.
And that’s what I’m reaching for. That’s what motivates me.